Chapter 99

I stare at him in utter heartbreak for making this one night about this one thing. He’s ripping me to shreds, knowing I did this to both of us. Arrick sits back down and looks at me with a broken expression. Taking in my face and visibly pulling himself together, like he realizes what he’s doing to our special night. What he’s doing to me.

“I’m sorry. I know you got checked out, and I guess I hoped that maybe there was a chance. I kept trying to ignore all the little signals as nothing, but tonight it seems too coincidental.” His voice is torn and low, and it stabs me with how broken he sounds. I blanche at him and how his head works and feel utterly powerless. I know that no sex means no baby, but I can see how desperately he clings to some stupid hope.

“I get that you want me to be. I do. I get that it hurts you still, but I’m not. You need to accept it.” I am trying to keep my tone level and kind because I don’t want to be harsh.

Please, for me. Let this go.