Chapter 49

Arrick has avoided letting our make-out sessions get beyond this level of passion for the last couple of weeks, always aware of taking things too far, and it is starting to get to me. Not sure if I am ready to get more physical, but his lack of pushing any boundaries is making certain that I will never know unless we try. He is being tender, cautious even, and infuriatingly gentlemanly.

When I’ve tried to heat things up, he breaks off and separates us, cooling it back down immediately. A part of me loves that he is this considerate, and this is just his way of respecting me and taking care of me. But on the other hand, I want to feel whole and capable of having a normal relationship. Part of me is afraid he’ll get used to this weird something, stuck between platonic and not, and we will never move further. I want the whole package. I want to feel like I did in the first moments of that night when he brought my body to new heights of pleasure.

Like every other time, he br