Chapter 10

I unload my clothes from my bag into my wardrobe, alone in my bedroom, while Jenny and Christian are shown to guest rooms downstairs after a less stressful drive from the airport. Jake had two cars waiting for us upon landing. Thankfully, Arrick went with his brother and Nate in the other vehicle and left us three to head to my parents” home in peace. My head and heart are still reeling with the after-effects of being so near him for that journey. I feel drained, uptight, and antsy, like I am all out of whack and can’t get my act together. I need some cooling-off time to breathe and accept the fact that, YES, that asshole still fucks me up whether I like it or not.

Whether he deserves it to or not!

After being welcomed home by my mom and dad, I’m taking some time out, getting my head together after seeing him again. I must admit, I need this more than I thought I would. Being around him still hurts more than it should. Part of me aches for how we used to be and hates the