Chapter 6

Yeah, I know it's weird, what I just said. I found it really weird that I had said what I had now; I just thought of having kids, but I hated kids! I didn't even want kids when I grew up.

I've got to get control of myself, really... I mean, he was cute and all, but no, no, no! I smiled through the rest of the conversation we had, trying my best to be conscious of my thoughts and actions around him.

When we got home, I just went to my room. Actually, I ran to my room, I ran to go see if I could see him again through the window, like yesterday.

He just entered his house right now before I got to ours. Nick went with him; he didn't ask if I wanted to come along, and I wasn't going to ask if I could tag along. I was trying to be in control.

I closed the curtain, but not the window glass. I was going to hide behind the curtain. Yesterday, I had fallen asleep while doing this; maybe that was why I woke up when I did - I hadn't slept in a good position.

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