Chapter 155

I no longer dreaded coming home to an empty apartment, or burying my nose in coc**ne just so I could feel something. She put me on track, gave me the light at the end of what seemed like a never-ending dark tunnel.

I need her, I miss her, and I just want to hold her once last time. I don't think I would be able to let go of her but I want it, I want to feel fulfilled again. It's selfish of me to want Layla when she's with her biological mother but I do, she doesn't know her like I do. Layla is with strangers now, she doesn't have her teddy with her, she can't sleep without it. All her things are here, in this house, I'm here too, and she should be here as well, this is her home. The only home my baby knows.

Every time I fall asleep I dream of her, and it's like she's here but the moment I awaken and check her bedroom, I don't find her there. All her things are there, her little bed, the crib we got when we decided she was going to stay with me. Olivia had initially tried