Chapter 195

I knew suddenly what they wanted. My family knew how I had hated to give Hannah up. It would have killed them to tell me I had to do it again, so they couldn't bring themselves to say it.

The women wanted another Hannah, they would breed me.

Breakfast rushed into my throat and I bolted for the bathroom. Everything I had just eaten came right back up. Kneeling on the bathroom floor, I panted and cried.

"I won't do it," I kept repeating.

The men wiped my face and I slapped at their hands while scooting back from them on my knees.

"I won't do it," I said louder. "You cannot make me. I gave away my firstborn, never again..."

I stood and kept retreating for two steps. Literally and figuratively I found myself in a corner.

"You must," Christof said quietly. "It is what they want from you, from us."

"No, I won't let you put a baby in me," I shouted shaking my head. "None of you will touch me. The women will get bored with the game an