Chapter 41

I’m so exhausted that I sleep through the rest of Saturday and a good part of Sunday morning. The sun is already beating down when I finally wake up on the patio lounge chair, curled under the blanket I pulled over myself.

I remember having nightmares, but not the details. In one I run—faster and faster, farther and farther—but I never escape what chases me. I don’t even know what I’m running from. I can only assume it’s everything.

I wrap the blanket around me and stumble into the living room. My whole body aches and I feel old, like no part of me wants to keep working.

And I don’t want to be alone.

I take a hot shower and that eases some pain, but not the kind inside.

The truth is, I want to be with Marcus, but I’m not ready.

So I call the only other person I can turn to.

“Will you let me stay with you?” I ask as soon as Cass picks up.

“My God, Gabriela… I should come over there and strangle you. Do you know how worried I’ve been? Wh