Chapter 56

Still under the watchful gaze of Rini on my injuries, I quickly explained:

"I just hurt myself."

Rini looked into my eyes, and I couldn't lie to her.

"Can I see?"

I hesitated, but swallowed hard and handed her my wrist. With care and delicacy, she lifted it a bit, and I felt embarrassed.

"Are these nail marks?" she asked, tracing them. There were many. Unfortunately, I hadn't controlled myself as I had in the past.

"I just ended up hurting myself," I said, taking a deep breath, feeling a heaviness in my heart. "Yesterday, I had an anxiety attack and started crying. There wasn't any reason, but it felt like I was suffocating, like my heart was about to burst out of my chest, and that I was crying for a whole year. And you know, I don't like feeling like that. I think I did it to shift my focus away from the pain. It's easier to deal with it that way and then stop."

"Jaejun... that's not the easiest way," she said in a gentle tone, but I knew