Chapter 71

I impulsively move towards her, so desperate to touch her when she’s in pain but she raises her hands away from me to tell me to back off and I swallow it back and clench my fists to pull back. We’re back in the sheltered dimness of my side garden and concealed once more, at least here I can block her in and stop her from running so easily this time.

“I know… I know that now. It’s all I have thought about for weeks. You are all I think about, constantly, Sophs. I was stupid, and crazy to ever let you go, the biggest jackass in the world. I miss you, so much I’m going out of my mind. You have to believe that! When Jake told me you didn’t want me to contact you anymore, it almost ended me. He told me there was maybe a guy and I didn’t know what else to do, so I stayed away as best I could. I know I fucked up, that I no longer had a right to be anything to you; I have lived with it every second, of every day for months and hated myself for being so fucking dumb.” I ramble it out