Chapter 73

Ash's POV 

"No, I'm sorry. I'm sorry that this happened to you. I'm sorry that you have to go through this when you just finally got back together with her." Her voice shook as I heard sobbing sounds from the phone. 

My heart filled with pain and it was like there was something in my throat blocking me from speaking, like there was something lodged in my throat. I wanted to speak up but hearing how pained my mother was made me pause. 

What exactly was I going to tell her? I have been so caught up with myself that I failed to reason the fact that she may also be feeling the pain, or I had tried to protect myself by not telling her, fooling myself into thinking that I was trying to protect her, or that I had forgotten about her. 

"Mom," I choked out. 

"I wish I could see you right now," she told me. "I wonder what you must be going through. I wonder how much pain you must be going through. This happened months ago, Ash, and not on