Chapter 27

"No no no!" Holden gasps, "you're not a failure! You're just finding your feet."

As soon as the twins have calmed down, Holden places them gently back in the baskets before coming over to me.

He sits beside me and wraps an arm tightly around me, pulling me closer to his warm comforting body.

"I don't know what to do." I whisper, "I feel so weak.."

My heart constricts at the idea of being left alone with the boys.. I'm not capable of caring for them. I can't even handle them crying.

"Lizzie Lizzie baby.. I think we should get the doc round. I'm worried about you."

I shake my head and refuse to admit anything, "I'm fine!"

Yanking myself away from him, I rush off upstairs to barracked myself in the bathroom.

The door locked, the shower on to mask the noise of anybody and I just sit in the bath tub huddled into myself.

I can't handle anything or anyone.

I fall asleep in the tub with tears running down my cheeks.

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