Chapter 43

After dinner, I spend the whole night in the living room watching TV. I might be exhausted and sleepy, but I don't want to go to bed. I didn't think things through when I said yes to spend the weekend with Jason. I know he will not force me to have sex with him, but he might want to make out with me. It's not like I have never made out before. I have, but I am just worried Jason will not like what he sees when he sees my body. He has been with a lot of women, so he must have definitely seen a lot of beautiful female bodies over the years. I don't think he is going to like my body when he sees it. I plan to stay in the living room till he goes to bed. I know I can't run away from him forever. I just plan to until I feel confident to show my body in front of him. 

Jason already tried asking me to go to bed, but I told him I wanted to finish the show I was watching before I joined him. This would be the first time we would be spending the night together. I am not ready yet.