Chapter 13. The First Step

I don't think I can do this.

I hadn’t objected when Kian had decided I show him the first step because, well, I thought I could do this, thought I could show him, but now that we are here, and all the materials needed are available, I don’t think I can do this.

And it’s because I’m scared. I’m scared that Kian won’t approve of my first step and would immediately send me packing. I’m scared that my cooking skills won’t be marvelous enough to woo him into letting me stay longer. I’m so afraid, my hand is shaking, and the cutlery keeps falling.

“Farrah baby are you okay?”, Kian asks, eyeing me.

Lord, I wish I am. I give him a shaky nod, reaching for the cutlery again. Lord Farrah, stop being such a wuss.

“If that’s true, then why are you shaking?”, Kian asks again.

“I’m fine really”.

His features softened. “You don’t have to lie to me Farrah. It’s okay if you don’t want to do this today. We can try it some other time”.

“I don’t have some