Chapter 64

Matthew

I stopped on my track after shutting the door to Keith's room.

He wasn't even following me, well what did I expect from someone who's homophobic but yet trying to show he's not?

He just indirectly said the thought of I and Billy planning to date will probably disgust him.

I wonder how he would have reacted if I had truly told him I had a crush on him. Perhaps he and his brother would just start throwing insults at me.

I swallowed hard sniffing, my eye already began to be watery and I knew I was going to cry soon.

I hadn't even confessed how I felt about him yet he was already hurting me. He's a Deacon son, he would probably try all in his power to stop me and Billy from dating. Even though I don't have any crush on Billy yet. I think it's high time I just begin to crush on him.

He will treat me better than Keith.

I deserve better, fuck it if I'm gay, everyone sins every day!

I descended the stairs still holding my tears,