Chapter 46

“I love your confidence that I can’t change my feelings about someone and move on. One night out of school with Jordan made me realize how well I can be treated by a guy who admits his feelings and values my company! Maybe I needed closure on what I thought I felt for you to open my eyes and see what decent boy had been waiting for me all this time. I never really noticed how much I liked him or how well we got on. … I guess that’s how it felt with Charmaine, right? Like an epiphany. So I figured I would stop wasting my time and give something real a chance.”

I don’t mean anything I am saying, but he's gotten me so mad I would happily lie and tell him Jordan’s now my boyfriend to stick it up in his face. The level of anger I am experiencing is so extreme I want to cause physical harm to him in horrible ways. It’s the first time in my life I have had the urge to punch someone, and I wish he were here to let me.

My message is a poison arrow, and I’m seething so intensely that I