Chapter 92. Nothing Left to Live for

Astrid

After a while, I stopped sobbing though I still sniffled and hic-cupped occasionally. My face was still stained with tears and my eyes were sore. It felt like I’d been crying for ages though I knew it probably must have been for only about an hour.

Although I didn’t cry anymore, I still felt the hurt ravaging me from the inside, threatening to tear me apart. It was like I was lost in a dark and silent world with nothing to hold my interest. My surroundings were dull and there was no sound except for the sound of skittering insects on leaves and croaking of frogs somewhere.

I just lay there, staring at the moon, watching as the clouds swirled around it. Sometimes, the cloud hid it and other times, the moon was left clear. It had been a full moon the previous day and this moon was more like a reflected shadow because it wasn’t fully hidden. Back at home, I remember the days I’d sit out to watch the full moons, enjoying its glow and how much po