Chapter 105

Jake is watching me over a mug of coffee in the small café. My tears have finally stopped. I’m not heartbroken, just resigned and letting go of all that pent-up emotion; part of me is relieved. There are no other words for it. His eyes never leave mine, and his arms are aching to hold me, but he knows I need a moment to let my body, emotionally, mentally, and physically, settle. I want to get through this without any outside help. It’s just something I need to do.

My Jake grounding me, always understanding what I need. He listens intently as I repeat every word from my encounter, holding my hand and letting me cry. He has wiped my tears and been the rock he always is.

“You don’t want her at the wedding at all? No visits when the baby comes?” He’s watching me closely, trying to understand my decision, wanting to affirm what and who I want in our future. I shake my head.

“No, as far as I’m concerned, both my parents are dead. I have my family, and its surname is Carr