Chapter 13

My heart was pounding in my chest, I was about to have a heart attack. I was afraid of what to expect. You didn't want to face an angry alpha. I had to do this to myself.

I shouldn't get my hopes up too much. Our first meeting had gone very badly. It couldn't be any better when Alpha Blackmoon was upset. I could only pray that he wouldn't do any violence to me. I felt these chances to be small at the moment, so something was coming.

Melody accompanied me into the house. We walked up the stairs and neither of us had said a word. She felt comfortable with me or was afraid of punishment herself. It was probably both and I could understand her.

At least Lilia didn't fight her way through. There was a good chance she was a little uneasy herself. Her presence would have made things worse.

Melody and I reached my room faster than I would have liked. The door was open and Melody stopped a few steps away. I looked at her and she looked worried.

I nodded to her to let her go. I would never do that to her. Melody wanted to say something, but I started walking. I had to face Alpha Blackmoon anyway and wanted to get it over with quickly. I wouldn't involve Melody. She should just go and let me handle it.

I would have preferred to run away or hide somewhere. However, that was not an option. It was hard to escape from the Alpha, you would never make it. This man would find me if he wanted to.

I entered the room and the monster was sitting on my bed. His eyes fell on me and anger might describe it best. Very big anger. That didn't alleviate my fear one bit. I could hear my heartbeat in my ears. 

"Where have you been?" His voice was calm. That wasn't a good sign, not with that look on his face. His voice sounded far too calm for that.

"In the garden." My voice was very quiet, I couldn't do more. It was a miracle that an answer escaped my lips at all. 

"In the garden. Who permitted you to do that?" You could hear the anger in his voice now. I cleared my throat and replied, just as softly as before, "The order was that I had to stay in my room yesterday. So I went to the dining room for breakfast and then went out into the garden. I thought that would be okay." 

I thought so. I'd stick with the story that it was my idea. I didn't want to get Melody in trouble. Especially not because she meant well.

Alpha Blackmoon stood up and my heart skipped a beat. I wanted to take a step back but fought the urge. That could make my situation worse.

He came at me at his alpha speed and the next second he was right in front of me. I had to look up and I felt like a rabbit in front of a wolf. Which wasn't far-fetched, after all, he was a werewolf. The comparison with the wolf should be a good one. 

His eyes were black, which spoke of his unbridled anger, possibly hatred. It might have been hate and not just anger.

He said, "You don't go anywhere in this house without my permission. You certainly don't leave it!" He'd raised his voice by the last sentence, which made me wince. The fear reached its peak and seemed to form an eternal friendship with me.  

No answer escaped my lips and Alpha Blackmoon nearly killed me with his gaze. Involuntarily it gave me goosebumps.

"How hard is it to follow simple commands? Or are you deaf?" His voice had calmed down again and I couldn't help but look away. I couldn't resist that look. But my mate grabbed my chin and forced me to keep looking into his eyes.

I could feel the sparks at his touch. Which calmed you down or made you happy. But it didn't evoke any of those emotions in me, not in this man.

He had asked me questions, why I should answer. However, I couldn't make it when he was so close to me. I couldn't bring myself to do that. 

"Layla, answer me!" He also shouted it much too loud and menacingly. No answer came from my lips.

I pulled myself together and searched for my courage. I could very well use that so that I managed to get through this. Unfortunately, I could not find him anywhere and remained in my desperation mixed with fear. I got to the point where even my hands started shaking.

His grip on my chin tightened and it started to hurt. If he kept this up, he'd probably break it for me. He added: "It can't be that difficult." 

I swallowed hard and had to clear my throat. However, I managed, and my vocal cords still seemed to function. "I'm sorry." Perhaps an apology would calm him down.

"Oh, you're sorry. Even if you got caught doing it." That was a wrong assumption on his part. Amazingly, this response came out immediately: "I thought it would be okay. I didn't think I was forbidden. The order was to stay in my room yesterday, and I complied ."

Please make it better. Please, Alpha Blackmoon believe me, I didn't do it on purpose. 

Seriously he said: "Now you listen to me very carefully, Layla. You will never disobey my orders again. Never again. I can throw you in the dungeon as well, I have no problem with that. Carry on like this and you will never see daylight again ."

dungeon.

Oh no, just not in the dungeons.

If they looked like ours at home, then simply never. Down there you would go insane and completely lose your mind.

It gave me goosebumps and I just wanted to look away. Nobody could resist that look. It was cruel.

I would have nodded, but the monster held my chin very firmly. Very quietly, I uttered, "All right, Alpha Blackmoon." It was more of a breath, but thanks to his werewolf hearing he should have understood.

The sparks easily distracted me, which didn't exactly make this moment easier for me.

His gaze fell on my lips, he leaned slightly towards me. I thought he was going to kiss me, but then he stopped. 

What a stupid thought of me. The man would never kiss me, not even want to.

he hated me 

He roughly pushed me to the side and I fell to the ground. I was just able to support myself with my hands. I looked up at him anxiously, expecting a punch or a kick like my father always did. However, that didn't happen.

Alpha Blackmoon growled low and very menacing. Then he said, "Follow me." That brooked no contradiction and was a clear command.

He walked out the door and I was forced to follow him.

I hope he doesn't throw me in the dungeon. It may have been just a threat earlier, but maybe he carried it out immediately. 

I sent a prayer to the moon goddess before scrambling to my feet to follow the beast.  

I came a few steps out of the room and was grabbed by Alpha Blackmoon. He slammed me against the nearest wall. My head banged hard against it. This could be a laceration and my head was spinning slightly. His strength was demonstrated and he would be capable of much more.

As a werewolf, wounds healed faster than average. This wound should be healed soon. If it was a laceration at all. Judging by the serve, it could be one.

Lilia was there after all because I heard her whimper softly. No wonder, our mate had done this to us. I felt like whining as well but suppressed it compulsively.

I automatically met his gaze and he asked quietly, "Was I clear enough this time, Layla?" The vein on his forehead bulged and throbbed. He couldn't get any more angry. We had reached the maximum.

Very quietly, I replied, "Yes, Alpha Blackmoon." "Very good." For a while, he just looked me in the eye. I just dared to breathe and only very shallowly. I just shouldn't make any wrong moves. I couldn't even blink.

Lilia spoke up: "Layla, Xavier still didn't really hurt us. Maybe a little, but he would be capable of much more."

I didn't dare answer her, even though he might never hear it.

She continued, "Think about it. This could have been a lot worse. You see, our mate can't really hurt us."

Now I dared an answer because she made me incredibly angry: "Lilia! Our mate! He's our mate! He shouldn't do anything close to that to us!"

She whimpered again and withdrew for good. Wonderfully she let me down. 

Abruptly, Alpha Blackmoon let go of me and took a step back. Finally, there was the distance between us. That relieved me immensely.

I couldn't suppress a sigh of relief at that point. My heart kept pounding, it wasn't going to stop anytime soon.

In his tone of command, he said, "Come with me."