Chapter 48. Getting Danny

I don't know how long I have been laid here for, trying to fall asleep but I fail. Nothing I do works, I can't sleep. I feel like I'm here waiting for Alice to walk back through the door. She doesn't, something tells me she will never walk through that door again, and that I have lost her this time. I was so focused on keeping myself safe, I failed her, I left her and she was pulled into a trap.

I try to call the number she had rang me from, and it's disconnected. I gave her everything, over and over. Even when she kissed Danni, I forgave her and gave her everything, but it made no difference.

Why? God I want to scream, I want to hunt her down and demand to know why I'm not good enough. Why I'm not worth it, but the answers will no doubt only kill me more. All I can do is go over everything in my mind, and while I want to believe she didn't leave me, I can't fight it. It takes too much energy to make myself believe I am good enough that she would lie