Chapter 38. Losing the Sun

“You’re right about everything, Blaire. I do care for you and even if I keep telling myself that I don’t, the truth is I love you. I’ve loved you from the moment I laid my eyes on you, from the moment you almost chocked me to death when we first met,” Pete chuckled, reminiscing all the memories.

“I’m sorry I keep pushing you away from me, I’m sorry I can’t tell you that I love you. My heart aches as much as yours, I keep thinking about you and some days the longing becomes so painful that I park my car in front of your house, just so I could catch a glimpse of you but I know that I don’t deserve you, I don’t even deserve your love but I wish I had the courage to tell you my true feelings when you’d be sober tomorrow, but I know I won’t. I won’t—for your sake,” Pete knew Blaire was fast asleep, he knew that she wouldn’t remember anything once she wakes up but he had to let it all out or else he would’ve gone crazy.

“You’re so close to me, yet so far,” Pete kissed her fore