Chapter 84. I Have to Find My Mate

[ALPHA EDISON's Point of View]

I couldn’t escape from my past. There are days that I remember Satira. I couldn't stop the anger I felt in me and I hurt Claire because of it. I was scared and wanted her to run away from me. I wanted her to give up because I didn’t know how I could take care of her when I couldn’t even fight the demon inside me. Sometimes I wish I could explain to her the nightmares that keep me awake every night.

I didn't know how without being shattered into pieces.

It wasn’t easy to forget. That dreadful night—the night that changed me into a monster I never wanted to become. The pain was still here. And it refuses to let go.

Claire. She saw me with fear in her eyes. Fear and longing, and passion that brought a tiny light into my dying heart. And I still pushed her away. I wasn’t ready to heal. I thought punishing myself was enough to atone for failing to save my family.

But the real punishment was when I l