Chapter 18

“Arry?” She reaches for me this time, stepping towards me, but the wave of blackness closing in on me impulsively moves me away. Afraid that her touch might send me running, that would be the shittiest thing to do to her right now. Trying to control my breathing, my lungs heavy, as her eyes bore into me, eating me away with that terrified look in her eye. I want to be who she needs, to hold her and tell her it’s all going to be okay, but I’m freaking out and realizing that nothing is going to be fucking okay if she looks at me in that way.

That’s like kissing and sex… Sophie and sex…No, no, no, NOPE!!!

“You’re like a kid sister to me… You

are

a kid sister to me. We’re not like that. You… me… we have never been like that. This isn’t right, Sophs; this is wrong on so many levels. It’s practically incest.!” I blanch at her, head in chaos, thoughts tumbling around crazily. I can’t even begin to comprehend what being that way with her would be like. It’s wrong o