Chapter 58

Staring at the ceiling for a minute, I know I should go get changed. I’m still in my sweats from training, but I don’t care. I can’t be bothered getting up and showering, can’t really face going out to eat either or having her company. Nate has been busting my ass the last few weeks, over how off focus my game is and my trainer managed to punch me square in the jaw today, because I let my guard down. It still fucking hurts. A rookie mistake, one I never make, but my head isn’t on fighting anymore. Nothing seems to get my head back on task. Maybe I need a break, and time, to do absolutely nothing. A trip skiing, or maybe on my dad’s yacht.

Thing is… every trip I have ever enjoyed, also has memories of her. I sit up and grab the remote, in a bid to push her out of my head and stop torturing myself over this. I made my choice and I need to man up and live with the consequences. It will get better, it will pass. Sophie is still there, just out of reach, but I’ll get her back… She