Chapter 55

Ginger

I don't like the feeling of loss. I usually enjoy experiencing various emotions, and most of the time, I feel good when I remain silent while talking to someone. In the past two days, I have experienced a strange feeling of loss. I don't know what it's about or why I feel this way, but I can't go back to my usual state. Something inside me feels strange. I don't feel like the same person I was a couple of years ago or even the person I was a week ago. It's as if my life has suddenly changed, and I still don't understand how to function well or manage it. I want to free myself from everything I've been feeling, and in part, I need to feel like myself again. That's what I would like.

I don't know how many things I've lost without realizing it or what I've stopped doing because of the life I've been leading, but experiencing the feeling of loss without having a logical reason is the worst thing that could have happened to me.

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