Chapter 162. Wait a Lifetime

Chantel Raven

He is right. I am. Why did I want to talk to him about that?

"Lexcis, I-"

"Do not talk. I understand."

"No, you don't." I sit down on the seat next to him instead of next to him.

"Those days in the dungeons were awful, but they opened my eyes. Being close to you makes you hurt more. It hurts me. I went crazy when I thought about losing you. But it is funny because I never had you, so how could I lose you?"

I believe it would be better if I never had you. It scared me so much to think about having you and then losing you. I cannot imagine how scary it would be if-"

I left the sentence hanging between us, unfinished. This game is getting old for me. Pulling him back and pushing him away. It is wearing me out. But you have to. I do not believe he cares about me. Not the way I seem to feel about him. It is bad for you.

"I am not going to do this, Chanel. You keep coming b