Chapter 44. Distractions

Leah’s POV

You know how I thought that today was going to be a good day? You know how I had been so excited and had a feeling that things were finally going to be better? 

Well, I think you saw how everything went to sh*t. I think you saw how I found out about my mom. So having hope felt like a curse. I felt like the minute I would have some kind of hope, something stupid and messed up would happen. 

So why not learn? Why not just decide to stop being hopeful no matter how good it seems? That way, I don’t get hurt, yeah? Expect nothing good and when things go to hell, I won’t be surprised. 

If I constantly expect something bad to happen, that way when it happens, I won’t feel all too bad. It would just feel like everyday. So I guess that's what I was going to start doing now. 

Even though I was very far from a pessimist. But it was not like I had much of a choice. I just needed to stop being disappointed, it was kill