Chapter 37. Regrets

Amanda closed her eyes, She don't want it,  everything but not that. If Jeanne tells everything that happened 16 years ago to her young sister, she is sure that her second daughter will hate her as much as the first does now. She can't afford it, She would prefer to die, she needs their forgiveness, not their hate. 

Even though she had abandoned them, she never stopped thinking about them even for a second. Since she leaved them, they always remained in her mind. She knew she had been cruel, but she was afraid to face life after her husband's death and to take care of two children without a job.

She knows it's horrible and she will never have reasons or words to excuse her cruelty but she was really scared. To this end, she is proud of Jeanne, she looked like her father, strong and courageous.

She had met him when she was only 14 years old and fleeing the bad shots of her father she had moved in with him. He was only 16 too, but they loved each other so m