Chapter 39

“Jeez, what should I do now, dammit!! “I’m very confused about my feelings and all the strange things that are happening to me now,” I said anxiously.

I struggled mightily to fight off the negative thoughts since every breath I took seemed heavy. I try to keep my mind on the good things in my life because I am aware of how stress and anxiety can negatively impact my health. I make an effort to remind myself of the joy and lovely memories I once had with Mr. Hyung.

“No, I can’t remember and keep all my beautiful memories with Mr. Hyung in my heart. This is not good, and I have to forget it immediately. This will hurt my heart. “I can’t continue to be in a vortex and trapped with feelings like this,” I said seriously, holding my head tightly.

However, thoughts about Mr. Hyung were unavoidable. Even though I felt hurt by the news of his impending marriage, I missed him very much. I wanted to text him and tell him how much I missed him and how lost I felt without him.<