Chapter 10

Sitting here, I am worried, worried for Jackson. Would this make him lose Marcus? If it does, how will that change him? He is close to Marcus, which is evident from his breakdown after Marcus was shot. If they are fine, how will he get over it? Seeing Marcus around me, how will I cope? I don’t even know if I can cope with seeing Marcus again. The thought of him trying to kiss me still lingers strongly in my mind. I sit, waiting all night, waiting for him to come home. The TV in the bedroom is being used for a change. It is getting to be early morning. Sitting here, silence surrounding me, I hear the door. I move to get out of bed. No, I shouldn’t go to him. I should wait until he comes here, wait until he is ready to see me and talk about it. I move back onto the bed, sitting, waiting.

The bedroom door swings open, hitting the wall with a thud, and he slams it closed, kneeling at the side of the bed next to me, like he is surrendering to me. I move to the edge of the bed, a