Chapter 75. Heat. Part 4

GABRIELLE’S POV

"Cupcake, you're awake," Carson whispered as he stroked the side of my face.

I felt ashamed, Carson now learned that I was broken and used. What Mr. Buckwild did to me was my fault. He said that I asked for it and that I deserved it, wearing those short skirts to school and those tank tops. He told me I was a tease and that I was provoking him every day in class, with my long blonde hair and my perfect smile and ass. 

I hated myself for a long time. I tried to kill myself twice. The first time, I overdosed on pain meds, if Gerry never came up early that day, I would have been six feet under right now. The second time, I locked myself in my mom's car and tried to kill myself by carbon monoxide poisoning. Mom and Dad found me before it could put me to sleep forever. 

Then the nightmares came. I would relive the incident over and over again. It was an endless cycle of heartache and pain. And after years of therapy, I thought I was fine,