Chapter 83

“It just confuses everything. I confuse things by doing this. I can’t do this to Tasha.” Arrick sighs heavily, eyes trained on mine, yet I can no longer look at him. He’s doing it again, ripping my heart apart and my head and making me feel worthless. I blink back the tears to hide how much this sucks coming from him, to try and seem stronger than this, even though I’m failing.

“It’s not like your cheating this time! You broke up.” I snap at him, that inner hurt and anger surfacing quickly like a predictable timer going off. I hate that I am this pathetic at handling pain. It makes me feel childish and impulsive.

“It’s not that simple. She’s not some five-minute affair I can just throw aside. She loves me; we’ve been together for a long time, Sophs. Until two minutes ago, I didn’t even think I had it in me to kiss you like that, let alone like it. My head’s so fucked up.” Arrick starts pacing, thoughts tumbling through his head and falling out of his mouth, obviously hav