Chapter 113. New Fears

I wake feeling the bed move. My hand reaches out and grasps at nothing but air. Panic floods me that he has left me again; I sit up quickly, ready for the pain that he is gone again.

"I'm here." I look towards him, and he sits with me. "I'm sorry. If I had just fucking said, you wouldn't wake up panicking thinking I've gone." His face floods with guilt. He was trying to protect me; I need to remember that as no doubt he died with guilt at leaving me without saying what was happening.

"I'm fine." I try to smile but fail. For a moment, I honestly thought he had done it again, and I was ready to break. I don't think I will survive him leaving me again. He didn't, though. I look at the time: It is six-thirty, so it's still early. I look at him; he's already showered, so I am guessing he's ready to start the day.

"I need to explain what happened with Caiu." He looks at me, and I nod. Sitting up more, I get ready for it. Surely it's bad news? He's telling me eve