Chapter 77. Missing

I don't move. Lucia holds me as I cry. If I hadn't left, would he still be here? Elmay offered to get his bottle, and I told her I would. Why didn't I just let her?

My body shakes, and I cry. Lorenzo will hate me. I didn't think. I should have stayed with Luciano. Why the fuck didn't I just let Alice get the bottle?

Lorenzo said they would find him, but I don't feel hopeful. They had so many leads when I was missing, it took months. How will they find Luciano?

I can't stop crying. No matter how much I try to, I fail.

"Here." I look up to Iz, who is holding out a glass for me.

"Come on, up off the floor." Lucia pulls me up and guides me to the chair. "They will find him, Alice." She looks at me.

"Even you don't believe that." I can see it on her face. "I shouldn't have left him. I should have let Elmay get the bottle." I am going to regret that for life right now.

"No, you did the right thing. If Elmay had gone i