Chapter 78

I couldn’t agree with him more. A few weeks before, I was totally convinced that the only way not to end up going crazy was to close that stage. Since Kabir’s call, I had done nothing but take steps back and stir in my pain again and again, instead of turning away from it. I should have rejected the “gift.” I had to turn a deaf ear to everything and focus on moving forward. Knowing that Haydar was alive, that he lived like a damn king and didn’t care one bit about his own stability, only served to completely undermine what little self-confidence Rhiannon had helped me build in the previous months.

But there was my guarantee. Sebastian had been pretty clear about that, and he was right.

During the next few days, I did not transform again during sleep, although I had one or another nightmare. I slept much better; something in me had changed. I felt more focused, with a goal. I started training with Richie and Christian again, and alternating exercise with work helped keep