Chapter 101

Sebastian knew how to push my buttons until he got what he wanted from me, but Rhiannon sure knew how to make me feel guilty. It made me think, even when I didn’t want to. The business of meetings at her house had a seductive side: a part of me wanted to heal, while the other constantly revolted against the idea of succumbing.

Until I realized that I was acting like a child, and I stopped listening to both voices.

I decided to give it a month’s trial. Like to see how it goes.

The sessions were not what I expected, but I had never done “group therapy” before, so I didn’t really know what to expect. Rhiannon encouraged us to talk about something that worried us, in turns, and take the weight off our shoulders. We stood in a circle presided over by her and Sebastian; I stood facing the two of them, Richie, Hilda, and Nika around them. Chris used to wait on the porch, or watch TV in the living room. Duncan would stand near the window with his dog lying under the chair,