Chapter 46

I first started by gently folding my clothes splayed on the bed and throwing it into my box, but then slowly turned into an angry beast that threw her clothes rashly into her bag as a string of negative thoughts descended on her.

What if he doesn't like you after all?

What if he's secretly having an affair with Mitchell?

What if his mother is the one keeping an eye on you and one day she'll finally kill you and you'll lose your life over a guy.

Why are you being unfair? Your mother lost her husband, then her father, and soon she'll lose you? Nah, wake up Leila.

I'm not wicked, I promise, I said to myself but the words didn't sink in. Soon, my knees become weak and my legs slid over to the ground, crushing on the floor and pushing my face into my palm, sobbing silently.

The sobbing continued for a while, while I thought about disappearing from his life and ending all of this — back and forth— once and for all.

The door creaked open, highlight