Chapter 43. Pissed Off

I really want that kiss to make me happy.

I really want to be, and whenever I’m alone, I think about him and how that whole thing made me feel. It was cool, different, and fun. For the first time in my life, I finally understood why people my age liked to mess around.

I found it very annoying that he didn’t want us to go anywhere. I knew it shouldn’t have gone anywhere, but it did, and a lot of feelings came out last night. He couldn’t take back what he had said, even if he wanted to.

At least he said that his head and heart were telling him different things. My heart was racing, too, and I had to keep telling it to stop. I couldn’t be around Nash. I shouldn’t have gotten close to him, so I didn’t feel bad about keeping our secret.

I had to go back to work again today. When I left, luckily, no one was there, and Asher wasn’t there to give me more good advice. I didn’t talk to anyone last night, and I just stayed in my room. I’m not a good liar, so I shouldn’t