Chapter 99. Hiding in the Shadows

Dear god, I feel bad.

I always feel like I’m lying to other people. When I look at my friends and they don’t talk about Nash and I, it makes me feel bad. I don’t like how sneaky this is, and I don’t think it’s safe enough.

Things have been crazy since Nash ran into my room and told me the good news. When we’re alone, we can always run across the hall to each other quickly. It’s too easy to fall asleep and not want to get up. It’s easy to lie about what time work starts so that Nash and I can hang out in Nash’s Jeep outside the pool and talk for an hour. It shouldn’t be this hard, and I shouldn’t be so worried about it. But whenever I see him, I get this feeling that takes over my whole body. I feel love and energy moving through the air, and then I always think how exciting this is. I feel so lucky that he cares so much about me.

I’m not ready to tell anyone about this, even though I know it’s selfish. I’m not ready for all the crazy drama that’s about to happen. I