Chapter 36. Cry or Beg

I closed my eyes, and a sharp cry escaped from my throat. He pulled back, shocked, and looked at my face.

I clenched my fists, facing him, my trembling lips parted.

“I shouldn't have accepted you as my bodyguard in the first place. I knew it wasn't a good idea to keep you around me. Why… what are you trying to do? Distract me? I feel weak. I feel like I have a soul that is longing for something other than revenge. The way you treat me scared me. When you say you will do anything to keep me safe, even if it means dying… I didn't like that, because I was scared of losing you to death. When you were taken by Lord Vince… I kept thinking about you… I kept worrying about you… Ridiculous…”

I laughed out, tears still coming, my whole body shaking. I couldn't control any part of my body at this point.

“What was I thinking? Losing you… You are nothing but my bodyguard. Yet back then, when you challenged Lord Vince, I lied about being on my period to distract him and s