Chapter 143. Why

LENA

Was incredible. How is it possible to love and hate a person so much? Dean stirred mixed emotions in me. I tried to control my feelings when it came to him, but it was damn complicated. I was tired of Dean, not because of him, but because of me. I was fed up with loving him so much.

I know I said I wouldn't demand anything from him, but the words slipped out of my mouth. By the time I realized it, it was too late to fix it. I wanted to regain my dignity and stop begging Dean. Because what I just did was beg. I felt pathetic. Dean looked at me angrily. He disagreed with my words, even though he knew I was right.

"What did you expect me to do? Did you want me to sit around waiting for you to call and say yes? You and I both know you would never have decided, Lena. You wouldn't have decided because you're afraid of the world. You're afraid of love," he replied angrily. Dean moved a few inches closer to my face.

"No! I'