Chapter 133

Chris's POV

I sit in my cell, my head in my hands, feeling like the lowest of the low.

 My mother has been begging to see me, but I can't bear the thought of facing her. I am ashamed of what I've done even though I am being accused.

 Indeed, I have caused her.

I think about all the times she was there for me, supporting me, loving me unconditionally.

And now, I have let her down in the worst possible way. I can't face her, can't look her in the eye and see the disappointment and hurt that I know will be there.

I feel like I do not deserve to see her, to be comforted by her presence.

I don't deserve her love and support, not after what I've done. But at the same time, I long to see her, to be enveloped in her embrace and told that everything will be okay.

But I know it won't be okay. I know I've gone too far, crossed too many lines. And I don't know how to go back, how to make things right again.

So, I s