Chapter 173. Rash Decisions

My heart hurt. It hurt so bad and I did not know how to make it stop. Well, the thought of drowning myself in alcohol came to my head way too many times, but with my dad here, I knew that he would never let me do that. 

I was so tired, but not just physically, but also emotionally. I was tired of my life being sh*t. I was tired of everything going wrong anytime I started to have some hope. I was tired of being in this valley. 

At this point, I would settle for being just out of the valley, even if it was not a mountaintop. It just felt like life was so far from fair right now. And it left me with so many questions, one being, why me? 

“Come on, let me take you to bed,” My dad whispered to me lovingly. 

I nodded and withdrew from the hug. I then stood to my feet and followed him out of the living room and to the bedroom. I wanted to sleep in the master bedroom, I wanted to sleep where Mark and I used to sleep. 

It would be the closest I