Chapter 30. Poses

Dressed in the wedding gown, I felt magical. It was a very lovely dress and as I stared at my reflection in the mirror, tears slid down my face before I knew it. I felt a bittersweet feeling that was very heavy and strong. 

Wearing the dress reminded me of it all, it reminded me of the fact that I would have been officially married to Mark if I had not caught him; if he would have respected me enough and seen me as enough. 

What was it? Was I too thin? Was I too fat? Were my feet too ugly? Was my hair not perfect enough? What was it? I really wanted to know. What was it that made the very love of my life to seek another woman to bring him pleasure? 

Those questions and so much more danced in my mind and it made me feel so insecure and small. What could I do? Should I be more like Nora? Should I have dyed my hair jet black and done surgery to get her perfect body type? 

I blinked rapidly for a few seconds and tried my best to hold back my other te