Chapter 15

I feel like I haven't slept long enough. My eyes are swollen and my vision is blurry, burning in the corners and with heavy eyelids. I almost forget that I shouldn't take the medicines and slip them into the sleeves on my blouse. I hide them in my pockets the moment I am dragged out and follow in line with all the other patients. In the bathroom, I enter the small Box with a toilet and throw all the accumulated pills in my pockets. Taking a short shower, I carefully rub the circular mark that burns on my breast; a familiar and scary reminder of last night's nightmares.

I follow Maisee to the courtyard where my friends are already. I realize that Carter is not at our table and no other. Henry says something as if he had had a kind of relapse and was excluded from treatment. I'm not sure if that's exactly what he said. I don't understand almost anything they tell me in the morning. I am completely exhausted trying to keep order in my head, and pretending not to notice the worrie