Chapter 55. Complicated

"Ms. Hazel, I can't bear to see my child go through what I went through. I experienced it, and I can say it was incredibly difficult. Incredibly difficult," I said with a shaking voice. "I am afraid that when he/she grows up, she might loath me for what I possibly do to her."

"Will you continue?" she asked. I could hear the crack in her voice. "To carry it in your womb?" she added, finishing what she was asking. 

I shook my head. "I don't want to talk about my past, especially my mother. It hurts here," I pointed to my left chest, my heart. "Where do you think I came from? From rape too? To be given away that easily?"

"We don't know the real reason, Dianna. We also don't know if she had other reasons for leaving you and not coming back. Maybe she's ashamed because she left you."

I shook my head. I didn't want to hope anymore. "I've hoped for so long that it could have been like that, but it hurt even more. So, I'll just stick to the explanation that make