Chapter 59

Two weeks of nightmare life, all down to me, my moods and erratic behavior have tested every ounce of Arrick’s patience. I think he’s seen every bad version of me there is and then some, and I can’t help it.

The idea that I am pregnant has sunk in well, but I don’t love it any more than I did and feel a huge resentment that I have to stay here while he flies home today to do whatever he needs to do. In the end, Jake couldn’t sway his father to change the plans, as he dug his heels in. I think he is punishing Arrick for leaving the company and using his last weeks as a weapon to piss him off.

We haven’t told anyone except Jake and Emma about the baby yet, swore them to the utmost secrecy, and I wouldn’t even talk to her on the phone about it. I’m not ready for sweet cozy chats about motherhood. I don’t want all that happiness and congratulations aimed at me when all I can think about is how shitty this is.

I tried to raise a conversation about our other options with