Chapter 45

Albert's POV

I've spent three hours in this bar and I've been drinking a lot. The alcohol has made me do things I would never do while sober. I took off my shirt and threw it into the crowd, I almost fell while dancing on the table. The guys cheered for me and asked me to shake my hips; without any shame, I did. In these three hours, I've felt more alive than in my entire life. They encouraged me to kiss an unknown guy and then a girl. My mind told me, "This is your chance to define a bit more of who you are."

Due to that reason, I accepted to kiss them. The kiss with the girl wasn't bad, but I felt nothing. Straight people should feel good kissing a woman; they should feel like it's right or that it's the best thing. That wasn't the case for me. I adored the kiss with the guy whose name I won't remember tomorrow. I felt good and alive. That's when I understood that I wasn't straight, and no matter how much I wished to also like women, it wasn't like that.

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