Chapter 132. Life Together

LENA

Dean was right when he told me it wasn't fair to him. Despite him being the one who betrayed and played with my feelings first, that didn't give me the right to do the same to him. I didn't want to be like Dean. I promised myself I wouldn't be. But I still wasn't acting properly. I betrayed Jake again and played with Dean's feelings. There was no doubt anymore: Dean did love me, and he didn't want Carla. I knew he didn't look at her the way he looked at me. But that wasn't reason enough for us to be together.

He and I involved too many people in the middle. Dean and I hurt people without intending to. Both of us would end up alone.

Tears returned to Dean's eyes. I felt sad for doing this to him. I wanted to wipe away his tears and apologize, but Dean didn't allow it. He didn't let me touch him. He recoiled as if my touch were poison to his skin. I was surprised by his reaction and leaned back to give