Chapter 258. Monday, Noon

I sat there in stunned silence, the weight of my thoughts pressing down on me like a heavy blanket, even heavier than the duvet that was now wrapped around my body. 

My breathing was erratic, and the shame clawed at my insides. What had just happened? Josh? Of all people, how did my mind betray me like that? 

But come to think of it, it was somehow expected. I had been having weird feelings recently so I think that this was inevitable, I just had not expected it to be this soon. 

I clenched the duvet tighter around me, trying to steady the erratic thudding of my heart. Josh was supposed to be someone I was wary of, but he was not…gosh, who was I kidding? Josh was a kind soul, he was just deeply hurt and misunderstood, trying to find a way to make his life and the world around him better. 

But no matter what, I had to get a hold of myself. This was going way too far. This was not okay when I had not even broken things with Mark yet or even knew if