Chapter 12

She's sweet and enjoys dark humor. Sometimes, she reminds me of myself. It's like Benton decided to find a girlfriend who is similar to his best friend. The girl's name is Estefany; she has light brown hair and likes to dress in loose-fitting clothes. I like her style; it makes me think of those girls I see on television. And to top it off, she always treats me well and buys me things occasionally. I don't like her because I'm interested in material things; I like her because she's the first of Benton's girlfriends who treats me well and doesn't see me as a despicable guy. She's a cool girl.

After a month of having a million things to do, I learned that life goes by faster than you expect, and sometimes you need small breaks to stay afloat. In a month, I'll be turning twenty-one, and I'll be even more independent than before, which makes me hold onto the idea that I must work as much as I can in these last days.

Sometimes I look back and remember Alana, the girl I was go